April 13, 2008

• I realized today how much I want something.  I mean, really want it.  For those of you who know me well- know what it took for me to get this last degree, how much I had to deal with, and go through to get here, who knew that it was pure will power and God's grace that kept me from losing my mind, health, and those relationships that were not lost forever while I went after it, you will be shocked by this.  I want this new thing more.

  It scares me. 

  What lengths will I go to make it happen?

  What if it doesn't happen? 

  What happens when it happens?

  What if God doesn't want it to happen?

  I need prayer.  Let God's will be done, and let me be at peace if this is not what He wants for me, if this is not how I am to serve Him.  After all, if this is what He has planned for me, nothing will stop Him or it happening.

  I'm scared.

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